friday and saturday were the best :(

haah apa-apaan ini.
you shouldn't play around with fire. why would you pry up feelings thats been buried, half-buried in her case, if you dont want to commit? are you trying to do this on purpose? you already know everything, everything she told you, don't use it against her and make her feel weak.. she's weak enough already. maybe you think that it's because you need her as one of your best mates but would you still approach someone who had fallen for you, would you still be 'besties' when you've hurt her? that's sick. but on the other hand she doesn't.. seem to mind. play her fake, plastic heart. err. or maybe not so plastic. she can put up with your bullshit alright. she loves them doesn't she. she'd rather live in the bullshit world of words you tell her rather than suffering in one of emptiness and desperation. this cannot be helped.

Fazkia Comes To Indo

Yes, the focus sucks. But this pic was rather hard to take
I had to prop up my cam on 2 ashtrays -_-

yay! i finally met Fuzzy AND Dwenda yesterday, since we had to wait for her to finish her UAN. so we went to fX to have some laughs. and it turned out we all brought cameras hahah which is good good, due to my cam cant adapt so well in certain light conditions -_- sometimes i think it has an outdoor personality (wtf), like its owner LOL.



so we met at 11.40ish and dwen came by some hour later. oh we had fun alright ;) i hope dwen will be able to come with me, fam, fuz and sandra to

Fazki and Dwen xo

GC and even better, Melb! aah hope she can get into PTN, amin so she can save up some money for our trip yay :D my prayers be with you sis.
we ate at Pepper Lunch, awesome mirrors there hahah then made our way all around fX hunting for places. but we couldnt find the place we wanted, so we went to Amadeus. after all the chitchats and lovetalk (nobody's changed, in a good way teehee), we met our parents at Ya Kun Kaya (shame i was too full to try some :p they're one of my favourites). took pics again there, to sum it up. after some time,
we went home. gosh i rly hope we can spend the holidays together this year..

the Sound of Music

last night i watched the Sound of Music for the umpteenth time. i haven't watched it for quite some time, years actually, since we left the vcd at Melbourne (i think), so last weekend surprisingly my mum, wonderful mum bought the original dvd. how cool is that! since its my fave moviee and a family favourite as well. and i decided to watch it last night, ended up finishing at something past 12. i actually learned a few lessons.. might post them later when i have time. anyway here is one of the lyrics, Maria and Liesl sang (the other version of Sixteen going on Seventeen by Liesl and Ralph), which made me quite thoughtful.. hmm.. tell me, what do you think? leave a comment please ;) thankies.

Sixteen Going on Seventeen
Maria: You are sixteen going on seventeen
Waiting for life to start
Somebody kind who touches your mind
Will suddenly touch your heart
Liesl: When that happens, after it happens
Nothing is quite the same
Somehow I know I'll jump up and go
If ever he calls my name
Maria: Gone are your old ideas of life
The old ideas grow dim
Lo and behold you're someone's wife
And you belong to him
You may think this kind of adventure
Never may come to you
Darling sixteen going on seventeen
Wait a year . . .
Liesl: I'll wait a year . . .
Maria: Just wait a year . . .
Maria and Liesl: Or two

addicted to Grey's Anatomy

Meredith Grey: Okay, here it is, your choice... it's simple, her or me, and I'm sure she is really great. But Derek, I love you, in a really, really big pretend to like your taste in music, let you eat the last piece of cheesecake, hold a radio over my head outside your window, unfortunate way that makes me hate you, love you. So pick me, choose me, love me.


god i LOVE that quote! love grey's anatomy - and i really will buy the dvds once EVERYTHING school-related is over for the semester.

Dr. Meredith Grey: After all this time, all your warnings about me sleeping with my boss and you're doing the same exact thing.
Dr. Cristina Yang: Oh, it's not the same thing.
Dr. Meredith Grey: It's the exact same!
Dr. Cristina Yang: No, it's not. You and McDreamy are in a relationship.
Dr. Meredith Grey: And you and Burke are in?
Dr. Cristina Yang: Switzerland. It's very neutral there and they make very nice watches.

Cristina: This is me being supportive. Meredith: Really? Cristina: Yeah, fine, I'm totally supportive. Go. Meredith: OK. The man I love has a wife and then he chooses her over me. And that wife takes my dog—OK, she didn't take the dog, I gave it to her, but I didn't mean to give it to her, I meant to give it to him—but that does not change the fact that she's got my McDreamy. And my McDog. She's got my McLife! And what have I got? -sits up-You know, I can't remember the last time we kissed. 'Cause you never think the last time is the last time, you think there'll be more. You think you have forever, but you don't. Plus my conditioner decided to stop working and I think I have brittle bones. I just-I just need something to happen. I need a sign that things are gonna change. I need a reason to go on. I need some hope. And in the absence of hope, I need to stay in bed and feel like I might die today. Cristina: [throws back blanket] Whatever - everybody has problems. Now get your ass out of bed and get to work. NOW! Move! Move! Move!

CRISTINA: "You're eight feet tall. Your boobs are perfect, your hair is down to there. If I was you I would just walk around naked all the time. I wouldn't have a job, I wouldn't have any skills, I wouldn't even know how to read. I would just be... naked." IZZIE: "It's all makeup. Retouching." CRISTINA: "You get that we hate you, right?"

this one underneath is one of my fave, hahah





Izzie: [standing in the bathroom, outside the shower, where George is] I reminded you before you went.
George: I forgot when I got there.
Izzie: No. [she opens the shower door]
Izzie : No, you were so passive aggressive!
George: Naked! I am naked in the shower!
Izzie: [closes the shower door] Just tampons, George! I really needed tampons. God! [Meredith enters the bathroom] Izzie: I'm not riding in the same car as him.
Meredith: [looks at Izzie, who is standing in her "Hello Kitty" underwear] Unless you're going like that, you're not riding with me either. Where are the tampons?
Izzie: He didn't buy them.
Meredith: [to George] You didn't buy them?
George: Men don't buy tampons!
Izzie [opens the shower door again, and George falls over] You know what? You're gonna have to get over the whole man thing, George! We're women! We have vaginas! Get used to it! [she walks out of the bathroom, leaving George lying on the floor of the shower]
George: I am not your sister! [he slams the shower door]



George (to Meredith): You don't get to choose. I know you've been going through a bad time. I know you miss Shepard. And I know that your life has, admittedly, been pretty unpleasant these days. You get points for breathing in and out. You get to be a little selfish. But you don't get to choose a dog over me... I'm George. I sleep down the hall from you. I buy your tampons. I have held your hand, every time you asked. I've earned the right to be seen. To be respected. To not have you think of me, as less than a dog that you got at the pound. So, I'm not moving out. Whether you like it or not, I'm staying.

Hidden Name Meaning

You Are Dreamy and Distracted

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are full of energy. You are spirited and boisterous. You are bold and daring. You are willing to do some pretty outrageous things. Your high energy sometimes gets you in trouble. You can have a pretty bad temper at times. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow. You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily. Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is. You are very hyper. You never slow down, even when it's killing you. You're the type of person who can be a workaholic during the day... and still have the energy to party all night. Your energy is definitely a magnet for those around you. People are addicted to your vibe. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something. You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense. You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun. You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in. You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising. You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care. You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life. You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you. At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself. You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life. You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home. You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble. and here's his: i only pasted the ones that are different to mine You Are Carefree and Passionate "You are incredibly wise and perceptive. You have a lot of life experience. You are a natural peacemaker, and you are especially good at helping others get along. But keeping the peace in your own life is not easy. You see things very differently, and it's hard to get you to budge. You are a seeker of knowledge, and you have learned many things in your life. You are also a keeper of knowledge - meaning you don't spill secrets or spread gossip. People sometimes think you're snobby or aloof, but you're just too deep in thought to pay attention to them." LOL these stuff are quite scary sometimes. I love those sites hahah i found this from a friend's note. its pretty accurate (Y)! wanna try? http://www.blogthings.com/whatsyournameshiddenmeaningquiz/ enjoy!

mehh

hadooooooooooooooh. udah lah, im tired. im sick of you contacting me. stop it, please, if you start again somehow it turns into pleasure, it makes me smile, i dont want to smile if you're the reason. please. do you think im the only person you can update on your uphill 'career'? i shouldnt have been nice to you today. not even last night, when i regretted the text that i sent in the afternoon. shoot.

im absolutely looking forward to having fun and completely ignoring your messages. NEXT WEEK. IF, we dont meet.

one (not so) fine wednesday

phew, the 3 day period of school starting at 11.30 is finally over! no more "uncontrollable tanning" -___- "why?" you may ask, its becoz since i got back from Bali my skin got tan right (no one believe me that my normal skin colour is almost white), it actually looked NICE, i mean it still looks like reaaally-lightly, toasted bread HAHA kok dibandinginnya sama toast deh oh well u know what i mean, nah tapi pas di jakarta i went out in the sun again, jadi agak men-dark dan tercampurlah tan-nya Bali dan "tan" nya Jakarta, which is not good people, not good. jadinya mencoklat gitu tapi anehhh ew like dirty brown. hahaha. ditambah bokap gw yg suka ngajak berenang while he and my mum goes fitnessing. sumpah kayanya ga terlalu worth it deh krn skrg di PI itu weekends 50! najong mana gw berenang cuma 1-1.5 jam krn takut iteem haha cepet panasnya sih makanya mesti jam 6 dari rumah bahkan kurang dari itu. ckck.

yang menyebalkan adalah for the last 3 days i went naik metro and its so freakin HOT. maksud gw cuacanya, gila panas terik dan POLUSI DIMANA MANA ya ya ampuun. gw bukannya ngeluh and dont think that im a spoiled bitch who goes everywhere with a car, i mean i go home by bus. tapi supir ibu gw udah bener2 keterlaluan deh. gw cuma minta tlg anterin pagi ini doang, TAPI dia blg ga bisa krn mesti anter bokap gw dari UPH ke kantornya di Tomang, trus jemput adek gw pulang sekolah. padahal adek gw juga keluarnya jam 12.15.. ckck gw dari rumah juga 11.30 ya ampun. nenek gw aja ampe kesel bngt dan cerita ttg keributan yg dia bikin sampe kakek gw marahin dia hahahah mampus kan. dasar emang. grr depan ortu gw doang dia baik2 tapi sama gw, adek gw, kakek dan nenek gw ngga ada sopannya sama skali. sigh.

i cant wait for next week's holiday! why? gue kangen semua temen2 gue. no exceptions! dari temen2 tk, temen sd, sampe temen2 smp dan juga temen2 kelas 1 sma dulu.. ya ampuun rasanya pengen jalan sama semuanya! tapi gw mesti belajar juga nih nyicil buat ub 3 haha parah deh ah gw pengeen bngt mempertahankan prestasi serta kedudukan gw dan kalo bisa (amin) meningkatkannya. setidaknya ga turun lah.. tadi gw sm aul ke ccf beli tiket buat nonton salah satu film yg diadain film festival prancis hihi akhirnya kesampean juga deh, dulu tuh icha suka ngasitau.. tapi baru skarang beneran nontonnya :) pas keluar, ktemu si aphe sama yasintha, haha udah nyampe aja mereka disitu dari sekolah.

oh yea one wonderful news : ALHAMDULILLAH BIO GW GA ADA YANG REMED SAMA SEKALI! YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAY makasih ya Allah gw bersyukur bngt akhirnyaa setelah sekian lamaa gw bisa ga remed juga! sebel bngt gila pas kls 1 sm bu Diah tuh gw cuma pernah remed SATU KALI dan itu hanya SATU INDIKATOR pas UB PERTAMA SEMESTER 1 KELAS X! gila mana essay terus dulu, tapi alhamdulillah ya lancar.. hihi terimakasih ya Tuhan. ya gw masih sedih ttg OSN bio yang gw ga jadi, mana buat bhs inggris di batalin deh kayanya. ga mungkin diadainnya terpisah, orang yg lain udah seleksi jaksel gitu.. ckck. ya mungkin emang udah bukan jalannya, and there's a better thing for me waiting down the end of the road.. semoga rona, lintang sm bimo masuk 25 besar, amin.

cheers,
nvy xo