Without Estrogen, Girls Wouldn't be Girls

i have submitted another estrogenated artwork, interested? yesterday i had a hormonal disturbance (read: pre-menstrual syndrome -_-) and ended up crying in front of my sis while surrounded by piles of woods and miscellaneous building-a-house things. i had been cooped up for 2 days, what do you expect? i couldn't stand being in the house anymore and since it was too late to go somewhere, we went out and stood at the side of the car.
conversations fell into place. she's the one person i can tell anything, any random unimportant thing i can blabber to and she would listen and laugh off this cute little chuckle i love.. lol. but sometimes i get distracted when SHE tells her stories and drift away in this little hassled mind of mine. im sorry Hanna :(

oh you know what i couldn't bear it anymore last night.. and i texted him. I TEXTED HIM and asked if he still had school hahahahah he replied abt 20 mins later.. was a good worth of convo and surprisingly, IT CHEERED ME UP. i was singing again. i was thinking happy thoughts while listening to my damned iPod. i actually smiled listening to lamentable songs! gahh love really does make you crazy. like that library incident a few days ago. i mean, getting your friend to cut out an article for you because you wouldn't dare do it from a school library's property? HOW EMBARASSING. thankYOU, Lola, for being such a nice and understanding person! God bless your amazing brains and talents. teehee :D ♥

oh i sent out a message to my CNPS friends on MySpace yesterday, and guess what. they probably really dont, want to meet me again. not interested. i mean all of them's read it (except Aisea), but NO ONE'S REPLIED. no one's replied. it's.. bitter. yeah. JUST WAIT AND SEE, I CAN STILL HAVE FUN WITHOUT SEEING YOU GUYS. yeah, i'll have more time to spend in my second home country. sedih abis.

hokay. i'll be fine and its all good. at least things are falling back into place (again) now. i ♥ you. bahah.

Tener un buen día!
nvy xo

Only Human After All

huh. ternyata susah juga. i CANT RESIST being nice! i have a heart of gold which cannot be frozen (halah). so my plan for no calls yesterday afternoon FAILED.
here's the story. after being told he would leave at 4, i though, well by 3.30ish his phone shouldn't be on anymore SO what did I do? i turned MINE on. and there were 2 messages from him (remember the one before i turned it off was 'Nab." which indicated that he wants to call):

1. "Nabbbbb"
2. "Nab, if i dont get to call u. Take care ya. Sorry if i got u angry."

ahahahahha. ya i felt bad. so i texted back (texted back! rrgh) because i thought it would already be turned off. but then,
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28th May 2009
MESSAGE DELIVERED

fvck.

3. "Can me call?"

"yeah." (udah pasrah)

so we talked and it was okay. wasn't as bad as i expected, the 'so yeahs' when we were stuck. called twice because he had to get his luggage. then when i was eating i couldnt hear my phone beep and i saw that he texted me and said he was "sorry for the interruption" and he was "boarding now and take care". i think my reply arrived when he got to Singapore. okie doke

"I can hear you trembling at starts of conversations. Why is it so hard to admit? What's making you hold back? If karma had to turn on you now, I'd be no less interested, but don't count on it."

As I am only human*smirk (IAM GIVING YOUR WORDS BACK!)