Day Minus Oneee!

oh my ooh oh my! so damned exhilarated!
okay well this morning i signed up for yr 12's lessons at BTA 8 in Mayestik. hope Aul will follow there too in the end hahah coz i won't have any friends :( cancelled the one in Tebet because Dad suddenly worried about the transport lol could've said earlier.

meeting Rona was impossible as well today because she had to go to this gathering thing what Batak ppl do (she said it herself hahah), compare her and her cousins grades. that's normal. at least she doesn't have little cousins who you dont get compared to, well you just can't lol hahah

i hate this i hate not having a recent pic of myself on the comp! i cant be bothered taking the webcam out and Mum's sleeping atm soo i'm not disturbing someone else's rest anyway

i guess i'll write when i come back from Aus or if i'm able to, from Fuzzy's house hahah
i'm trying to forget everything nasty.
and it's working, slowly :)

G'day Mate!
nvy ♥xo

MerDer's Awaited Quote!

You know there's this one sad episode in the second season of Grey's which I have had the urge to find the exact words just TODAY, due to my suffering of not being able to watch GA for now, lol. I need to buy season 4 ASAP seriouslyyy before I go on Sunday.. At least watch a couple of epis and I can bring it to Aus if I want haha. Enjoy. You're gonna LOVE it.

"Meredith: I can't... I can't remember our last kiss. All I could think about was I'm going to die today and I can't remember our last kiss.
Which is pathetic, but the last time we were together and happy I want to be able to remember that. And I can't Derek. I can't remember.

Derek: I'm glad you didn't die today. (goes to leave but turns around)
It was a Thursday morning. You were wearing that ratty little Dartmouth t-shirt you look so good in.
The one with the hole in the back of the neck. You'd just washed your hair and you smelled like some kind of flower.
I was running late for surgery. You said you were gonna see me later and you leaned to me, you put your hand on my chest and
you kissed me. Soft. Was quick, kinda like a habit. You know, like we'd do it every day for the rest of our lives.
You went back to reading the newspaper and I went to work. That was the last time we kissed.

Meredith (beat): Lavender. My hair smelled like lavender from my conditioner." :'(

Shucks

You would have to tell me how much you hate me, and everything about me and what I do before I can completely wipe you out of my mind and my heart. But never my life; it's been a non-scrapable thing since we both knew the truth.

Why do you have to do this? If this isn't over, then I'm up for FAIR PLAY.

I know I have no right to forbid you from doing anything but every time I look at it, it's a goddamn wrecked train again I'm on. But strangely I refuse to get off. Over and over again. I actually like this train and maybe I'm just so used to it by now.

Sometimes I get confused why I look at it over and over again and get hurt but hey who to blame if I'm so curious about the shit that you share with her hahah forget about it you would never understand how much YOU don't get what you're missing.

4 Days to Recalling Childhood Memories ;)

the lowdown of my H-7

Sunday: Went for a swim while parents went to the gym, had brunch and met Tante Titi at PIM (lol all that rhymes!)

Monday: Um I can't quite remember? But stayed home.

Tuesday: Went to PIM to meet Dwenda and Angie to go to Angie's and photo shoot, hihi finally I get her to be my model, lol. I love the shots on the BMW by the way. Maybe I'll post more when i get my Photoshop working again :)



Wednesday: Stayed home, umm lied a bit in the morning. But I did have stomach problems the night before and it was hell :|

and tomorrow, well i hope it'll be okay. Yeah im not hoping for GREAT or anything but yea, the movie should be good plus I'm getting a few oleh2 for Fuz and Saz.
Plus it would be a nice outing and I'll be making jokes and laughing at a lot, lol
I don't really care if that kid is coming or not.. after all that's happened this week (even though there were more positive things). At least I get to get out of the house again and see my own friends hahah coz Hanna will be goin to Avi's till the afternoon i guess..
Well i'll write again tomorrow,

exhilarated,
nvy xo

Komodo National Park for the New 7 Wonders

Pagi ini gw nontonTVONE, dan agak sedih pas denger Candi Borobudur udah bukan salah satu keajaiban dunia lagi. Dan sekarang, precisely from last year sih, they're holding a vote for anyone who wants to, and i INSIST, bagi kalian semua yang merasa WARGA NEGARA INDONESIA, vote for KOMODO NATIONAL PARK! Karena hal tersebut akan membantu image Indonesia menjadi lebih baik dan lebih dikenal oleh masyarakat dunia. You can vote here

Oh, and here's what i voted for

Hehe iya deh ampun. But I couldn't find the Komodo National Park and I saw the Aussie's landmark and reef first, so yeah :p Indo AND Aus are both my countries and I love both of them : )

and THIS, is why you should vote for Komodo National Park

Joe Jonas Dances to Single Ladies!

i was browsing on YouTube last night to find some dance vids and found THIS. watch until it finishes!

Without Estrogen, Girls Wouldn't be Girls

i have submitted another estrogenated artwork, interested? yesterday i had a hormonal disturbance (read: pre-menstrual syndrome -_-) and ended up crying in front of my sis while surrounded by piles of woods and miscellaneous building-a-house things. i had been cooped up for 2 days, what do you expect? i couldn't stand being in the house anymore and since it was too late to go somewhere, we went out and stood at the side of the car.
conversations fell into place. she's the one person i can tell anything, any random unimportant thing i can blabber to and she would listen and laugh off this cute little chuckle i love.. lol. but sometimes i get distracted when SHE tells her stories and drift away in this little hassled mind of mine. im sorry Hanna :(

oh you know what i couldn't bear it anymore last night.. and i texted him. I TEXTED HIM and asked if he still had school hahahahah he replied abt 20 mins later.. was a good worth of convo and surprisingly, IT CHEERED ME UP. i was singing again. i was thinking happy thoughts while listening to my damned iPod. i actually smiled listening to lamentable songs! gahh love really does make you crazy. like that library incident a few days ago. i mean, getting your friend to cut out an article for you because you wouldn't dare do it from a school library's property? HOW EMBARASSING. thankYOU, Lola, for being such a nice and understanding person! God bless your amazing brains and talents. teehee :D ♥

oh i sent out a message to my CNPS friends on MySpace yesterday, and guess what. they probably really dont, want to meet me again. not interested. i mean all of them's read it (except Aisea), but NO ONE'S REPLIED. no one's replied. it's.. bitter. yeah. JUST WAIT AND SEE, I CAN STILL HAVE FUN WITHOUT SEEING YOU GUYS. yeah, i'll have more time to spend in my second home country. sedih abis.

hokay. i'll be fine and its all good. at least things are falling back into place (again) now. i ♥ you. bahah.

Tener un buen día!
nvy xo

Honestly, we'll never stop this train

No, I'm not colorblind
I know the world is black and white
Try to keep an open mind
But I just can't sleep on this tonight

Stop this train
I wanna get off
And go home again
I can't take the speed it's moving in
I know I can't
But honestly, won't someone stop this train?

Don't know how else to say it
Don't want to see my parents go
One generation's length away
From fighting life out on my own

Stop this train
I wanna get off
And go home again
I can't take the speed it's moving in
I know I can't
But honestly, won't someone stop this train?

So scared of getting older
I'm only good at being young
So I play the numbers game
To find a way to say that life has just begun

Had a talk with my old man
Said "help me understand"
He said "turn sixty-eight
You renegotiate"

"Don't stop this train
Don't for a minute change the place you're in
And don't think I couldn't ever understand
I tried my hand
John, honestly we'll never stop this train"

Once in awhile, when it's good
It'll feel like it should
And they're all still around
And you're still safe and sound
And you don't miss a thing
Till you cry when you're driving away in the dark
Singing

Stop this train
I wanna get off
And go home again
I can't take the speed it's moving in
I know I can
Cause now I see I'll never stop this train

John Mayer - Stop This Train

personally, i think the lyrics are great but the melody should be something more.. No offence, Mr. M :)

XI IPA 1 Goes to Puncak!

from Thea's. shame it's dark..

Cisarua, precisely.
alhamdulillah we got there and went back to Jakarta safely, despite of what happened before.. we talked via Twitter bout these freaky things that were possible it COULD happen because 1. there were no adults goin with us only drivers to drop us off and pick us up..
and 2. when Gorbi was asked by Gitta if he was definitely coming or not dan dia udah agak annoyed, he answered "NGGAK! NGGAK!" he shouted..? he rarely ever shouts and the whole class paid attention, and when Gitta asked why? he answered 3 words that made us quite panicked for days:

"Gue takut mati."
("I'm afraid i might die")

oh how awesome. it made us think.. that that IS possible. mana ada 2 mobil yg disetirin sama temen2 kita, i mean its not that i dont trust them, i do, but this is Puncak we're talking about,m the mountains. hmm. but after arguments and reassurings plus calming ourselves down, we eventually managed to get some sleep.

the next morning i felt, okay. okay enough to feel fine. we got ready at Sampit and departed at about 7.30, and arrived in Aphe's villa nearly at 10. to be honest, at first it wasn't that fun, but once we got to the poolside, everything changed. hahah and we talked about this particular person,Fanny, Sasa, and Aul

and we found out, that if someone in our class doesn't like a person, the rest of us (did we know) don't like him/her either! gahah! we chatted while drinking coffee

to make a long story short.. some of us went to Cimory that night and i gotta tell ya, its pretty awesome at night. the cool mountain breeze brushing our faces and the light captured by the camera can play tricks on you.. (Y) love it. oh good food also. shame we couldnt all go there.. wouldve bin great. nice pics also btw. when we got back to the villa, Gitta and Bintang started talking about what we can do tomorrow, after that me, Aul, Sasa, Billa, and Thea started to play Monopoly but it got boring and then i forgot how but me Sasa and Billa started this nostalgic convo about BRITNEY SPEARS AND WESTLIFE SONGS. hahah! when i was in 3rd grade i used to go to Shayda's house every weekend and either play make up, the net, or dancing to BS's songs! what a fun life. lol. so i got singing and they got, well, shocked because i was imitating BS and because they thought i was that shy girl across the street (wtf) hahah i love people's expression when they know the real me! -_-
and we had an idea: why dont we go karaokeing with Sasya's dvds! she brought a LOT i dont know why lol but hey we got around using them! it was really funy and other girls started joining us and there was this hit of Uptown Girl and all.. sigh rendesvouz.

eventually i went to sleep at 2. oh yea after karaokeing we went GOSSIPING. ngehh. but in the end it heated up and wow so many people related to this person and that, it became hilariously infecting. seriously! lol

oh we've got a new gang. Gunjing Girls -_-
atau Gadis Gunjing? well well my friends, youve bin through a lot and i accept that. hahah

aduh apa ya. gw jadi lupa.. okay well the 2nd day some ppl went to Safari and the GG (-_-) went to buy some corn, durian, and charcoal. the rest stayed at the villa. this was a fun trip also and we made up this song and started to 'bergunjing' about these guys again, lol. hmm

bos Jagung lagi beli duren dan tukang sate baru

me Thea Sasa and Aul went to this mosque near Puncak Pass, anyone know? you know that big one on top of the hill.. well its bin renovated and its cool, big, with chilly water as always but man this is freezing! brr (eaa haha)

Indah (right) and I opening up durians, lol

then at 10 (i know ppl got tired already so it started late) we roasted the corns, cut open the durians and ate them. nice. Nchel got sick, vomited coz she didnt have dinner and ate the durians. ckck
the next day, we had to go back to Jakarta. it felt soo quick and we still wanted to spend some mroe time with everyone, so we went to Cimory restaurant, which had the original yogurt-milk store and the mountain view resto. oh yea wrote about it didnt i, lol. time flies when you're having fun, and we couldn't believe it when we had spent 2 and a half hours there.
XI IPA 1, you guys are AWESOME (Y)

(above) Muha walkin' Hollywood celeb style and Sasya being flirty

Dream Away, David

I HAD A WEIRD, AND PLEASANT, DREAM LAST NIGHT.

i dont know.. im not sure what it really was about, but wherever it was, all of a sudden there lined up EVERY crush and guy i have been related to and there was one, only one person that i got to talk to. wish i could've talked to all of them haha. and you know who it was? David. my year 5 classmate i liked who actually liked me also but he was too, arrogant? to confess. found out in yr 6, when he was talking to Joey, my yr 3 classmate which, we liked each other. hahah! hey i should write about them soon! it'll be a real treat, entertainment -_- i have, funny stories about my love life :p

okay so back to the dream. David was talking about past things to me, and flashbacks of what i didn't know, happened. weird. and in that dream there was one moment when i thought
"i should get my camera i have to take a picture with all of these guys!"
oh, how Nabila is that. soo myself, the self-documentary addict -_- but hey gotta admit that's good. HAHAH so me! alright alright enough.
this is what i hate about dreams! i hate being unable to remember what really happened! but David showed me something, an occasion where Joey was the doer of something-i-can't- remember-what. rgh. yea thats it for now, i need the toilet lol

here's a pic of Dave (browsed through his FB lol)

yeah its a bit blurred.

*btw, i didnt, get to my camera so no memories taken. but hopefully i'll get to see you, David, in July. we'll see.

Syndrome; Sick of Jakarta

yes i am. i feel so stuffed in here. cooped up inside the house also. but not today, im gettin freedom (Y) shame it doesnt involve green trees.
i'll write again later when im done tasing freedom at the tip of my tongue. ONLY, the tip. the real freedom would be in 22 days.

12:24pm
im waiting for my sis to get home and then pick Rona up. started Breaking Dawn again, couldnt think of anything else to do. then suddenly i felt so STUFFED. seriously. aagh im an outdoor person! and cooped up inside the house like this plus the roof getting renovated doesnt help, lucky im goin out soon. damnit.

8:57 (the next day)
haha so my little outing with Rona was quite refreshing. we had waffles, with ice cream of course (which i shouldn't have had due to the half cured cough but i just cant stand the temptation of ice cream). and we talked about our future education. ive gotta tell you, Rona is one of those people who i can just blurt out whatever i want, feel, and need about my future. coz she knows me and who i am and doesn't think im showing off but im actually scared and rather freaked out because that's how i was made, how my four-years-out of home country shaped me to have a part where my life is unknown in a future year or so. and im telling the truth. if you ask me, where im going to go to uni next year, i would answer, i don't know, because it depends where i'll be. (shrugs shoulders with a sad look)
the point is that she has quite the same views as me and she's pretty knowledgeable about this unknown future bussiness. she knows the pros and cons, plus and negs about these things.

when we were still in yr 10s in the library
she rocks (Y) ♥

Ffff Friday.

know what. some bad news. when we were all just chatting about in class today doing NOTHING but we just HAD to go to school, there was an announcement that said we had to go to school next week for this non kognitif test. for each subject. WHICH could be done in ONE DAY if they didnt force us to still go to school for another FOUR, FREAKING, DAYS. you knwo what that means? it means, our plan on Sasa's farewell is a bit messed up. yeah maybe i'll just go to school on Monday if some ppl were comin but then they'll try and get some info from us?? rgh i cant believe this! i know Ms. KD means right, but.. this should be and exception. i mean when i asked Aphe if it was anything possible to postpone our roadtrip but she said that Sasa wouldnt be able to come after those dates. sigh i know she would be real busy yea, heck if i were her, and i was, 4 years ago.. i'd be doing stuff gathering memories with me. hmm. its sad.

but i finished watching season 2 of GA and i really need to go buy season 3.. wanna know what happens next haha. kay im gonna have dinner now, hope everything turns out great in the end.. hope i get lucky. my friends also.

you'll know it when you feel it,














nvy ♥

As a Friend..

hope my dad permits me to go to that 3-days farewell for Sasa's and XI IPA 1 next week.
I can't wait for the 28th of June.
I (surprisingly) get you crossing my mind, few nights lately. dangit.

okay today was heck boring no studying of course no nothing just a survey shit for our attitude marks, whatever. not in the mood for thinkin up the words in English. wanna PRACTICE them instead, i need someone to talk in English to. to sharpen them again, get the accent goin smooth. if Fazkia weren't busy with school i would get her to Skype me nearly every day til the departure date hahah. course, it'd be easier if... nagh he's not the only option, but the plus side is that it won't cost me a thing*evil smile. but no, i'll just wait until he gets back and get him to want to call me again aahahah. i mean you gotta do somethin to help your bestie sometimes, right? ;p

im gonna try and edit this boring looking blog of mine.. and upload pics and poems again on deviantArt. getting my art smock back on and inspirational glands producing again lol.

so yesterday when i watched my season 2 Grey's Anatomy dvds, i got to this part where Meredith meets Finn, her dog's, Doc, vet who took care of him. and she liked him at first sight coz he's, well, got the looks lol but she said she was 'celibate' hahah no guys, no sex after what happened between her and George. oh yeah and since Mer gave Doc to Derek to take care of because george and Izzie couldn't stand having him in the house anymore, it meant that Mer and Der were both rightful owners of Doc. Mer got asked out by Finn, and she got tangled up, her words, because she wanted to but she was celibate hahah and she's "knitting a sweater" HAHAH you should totally watch it dia kikuk gitu, well at the end of the day she went to his practice but unfortunately he had an errand to do, turned out he was delivering a foal, yea a baby horse. and Mer helped, so at the end he asked her,
Door 1: You go to my house, take all your clothes off, have a shower, clean up, and I'll cook for you. No sex
Door 2: You go home.
So I think you should pick Door 1.
(Im sorry if the words arent exactly the same, i forgot :p)



and she picked Door 1.

why did i pick the title as a friend? well Mer and Der were 'friends', at that stage, at least trying to be. Addison wanted to be "in" so she said "technically I'm her friend too". hahah. after what happened with George, Mer was still in questioning with Der, and Der said, after a successful surgery,

"As a friend, you should tell me ypur problems and i should provide you with answers.
And Mer replied,
"As a friend you might get mad at me"
or so, well i already wrote that i aplogize for the non exact same sentences.
But hey that's what friends are supposed to do right? Oh by the way in later episodes, Dr Webber (if im not mistaken), said,

"The only people who don't know Meredith and Derek are in love are only Meredith and Derek."

which is fuhreakin, true. at that point. lol

Via Virtual Vommunication

A close one asked me for some advice about her late relationship, which her boyfriend is my classmate, which she was my classmate 3 years ago, which so happens they're both my junior high mates, whatever. its pretty long, but there are some things that might be useful for you blogwalkers. hope it helps :)

the problem:
gw mutusin dia AWALNYA tuh karenaaaaaaaaaaa apa ya?hm..bingung..jd tuh gw sbnrny masih sgt suka bgt sayang jg sm dia..tp ya anggep aja gw terlalu cmburuan..atau anggep aja gw udah ngga tahan lg dibikin cemburu..tau ah.BAYANGKAN,lo merasa dicuekin dan tidak diperhatikan,sementara pacarlo baiiiiik bgt sm temennya..kemana2 dianterin..brg2 trs..menyakitkan,nab..
udh gt,waktu dia nglewatin gw naik motornya smntara gw dipinggir jln menanti bus kota menuju sklh gw yg searah sm dia jg,dia bahkan ngga berhenti untuk menyapa gw..gw SGT mengerti kalo dia emg ga dibolehin sm nykpnya boncengin tmn(mskipun dia hampir tiap plg boncengin ***** (note: temen cowo) sampe mana gw ga tau),tp apa salahnya si berhenti sbntar trs blg,"hai.." atau apa gt..ya gw tau dia telat,tp..lo ngerti kan maksud gw?itu jg kalo gw ngga dikasitau tmn gw,gw ngga akan pernah tau kl dia pernah kyk gt.hik..

lalu,terakhir dia nyuekin gw,nab..tanpa kabar smsekali..dia pernah sms gw,tp dia bls singkat2 seolah2 dia ngga mau smsan sm gw.alesannya si karena uang untk pulsanya dipake buat beli DVD tp apa slhnya si sms satu kali aja buat ngjelasin??
trs stlh putus,gw konfirmasi ke dia,trs dia blg ngga kepikiran smsekali buat ngabarin gw,bahkan ngisi wall gw atau ngirim message atau apa.katanya karena gw jrg buka fb jd PERCUMA.pdhl gw udah kyk org ga ada kerjaan lain,buka fb tiap hari..ngecek ada sesuatu dr dia atau ngga.trs kan gw diem..nangis..dan dia blg,"kamu sii jarang ol msn.." kalo lo jd gw,gmn nab?

my reply:
oke pertama, lo sabar banget ngetik ini dari hp. buset gw jadi lo buka komputer.
1. gw tau dia orangnya ternyata cueeeeeeek banget ya mon ckck gw ga ngerti knapa ada orang kyk gitu, ntah lah mungkin ada sedikit gangguan waktu dia masih kecil. gw dan temen2 gw udah ngomong mon sama dia, dia mesti ubah sikap. dan gw tegaskan, 'DIA MESTI MELAKUKAN HAL TSB KRN INI ADALAH KESEMPATAN DIA KETIGA KALINYA, AND HE CANT BLOW IT OFF karena kalo lo memberi dia kesempatan lagi (mksdny lo msh mau deket sm dia), berarti dia sayang bngt sama lo and u dont want to lose him" sumpah gw udah bilang itu smua ya ***, dan mainnya keroyokan gw ada 3 orang lagi yg try to convince him that ya. hmm
oke, untung ***** itu cowo haha. tapi mon lo pernah ngga sih ngomong yg sejujurnya gitu (apa yg lo tulis ke gw ini) ke dia?? siapa tahu kalo lo ngmg, dia bakal berubah

siapa tau dia ngga tau dan sikapnya masih seperti ini karna 1. LO GA TERBUKA 2. KRN LO GA TERBUKA -> DIA GA BAKAL TAU. cowo itu mesti dibilangin ***, yang sebenernya ky gimana, karna 1. lo tau sendiri jalan pikiran cewe dan cowo itu berbeda. 2. dan mereka itu ga bakal tau apa yg sebenernya kita pikir/mau jika kita ngga ngomong sm mereka.

2. "katanya karena gw jrg buka fb jd PERCUMA"
gw kira lo emang jarnag buka jadi ga tau :p tapi lo jadi sering buka gara2 setelah putus lo nunggu konfirmasi dari dia kan ya? jelas dia ga tau lo kerjaannya buka fb terus. jadi itu wajar. tapi yg gw liat dari kecuekan dia adalah mgkn krn lo ga suka jujur itu dia jadi males ga tau bingung mau ngmg apa sama lo..

jadi kesimpulannya ada lah saran gw lo mulai dari setelah baca ini, jujur sama dia. tell him how you feel, AH GW TAU MASALAH LO! EGO LE GEDEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
gw tau ***, rasanya gengsi.. tapi kalo lo ga MULAI TERBUKA, pelan2 aja deh mulainya kalo emang susah buat lo, HE WILL NEVER KNOW YOUR REAL SITUATION.

sepertinya gw akan buka klinik curhat di message facebook. hahaha

Went to the orthodentist!

yes i did! hahah satnite at laaaast i went to NDC and it was packed as usual, but lucky i didnt have to wait long despite the traffic and I was actually late coz before i had Physics lesson for the remed today. -_- hmm. well you might be wondering why would i come there anyway, since Ive taken off my braces? to check my retainer.

This is what a fixed retainer looks like:



its a 6 month control (which is pretty.. longing for me hahah) to check whether there isnt any problem and what i found out is that:

1. I really did break off one porcelain or ceramic or whatever thingie it is on my tooth, that means it really did, like on November (like the first month my braces were off :p what a vigourous eater) so the doctor put a new one back on

2. I have these lines at my molar teeth at the back, which turned out to be from food and the doc said I should watch that and give it more attention so it won't make a hole even though it isnt a "hole" hole), but it can cause like yea a dent and that is not good.

3. She says that generally people with fixed retainers such as mine gets calculus (karang gigi), but i don't because I thouroughly, and I mean, really, brush mine well (I can spend like 5 minutes brushing the whole set! Hahah). Since I wore braces and off now it's never bin neglected and i hope the habit will continue and last, teehee

And this is what calculus, or plague looks like (not good yea)



And damn, my orthodentist is soo good her hand movements are really "cekatan" lol doesnt even hurt and she rarely hurts me (if she does its probably because of however my condition was like hahah) so she's one of my role model in the Medicine world :p

You know what I have, considered a dentist as an occupation but Mum says the tuition fee in uni is more than Medicine, general med. Thats crazy. Even though we're playing with more focused things on people's bodies. Hmm