what is wrong with me. i had to delete some of my inbox contents because it was (as usual) showing 95% full. but as i went through of course i just had to peek in some of his. you know how i can never tell whether what he is saying is the truth or not, but sometimes i believe that.. he is sincere, in most (or less) convos. sigh. bener2 bikin pusing. i think, it was on friday night when i came back from bandung, i cried. yeah. just because i saw the recent pics.. no not because im JEALOUS its finding the fact that i can never be close to him as we are of "BEST FRIENDS" as he say, if we still are. why? for the obvious reasons.
1. different schools
2. we're too busy with our own activities
3. to get free time and spend it to hang out, its just not that.. "important", for us ( i think) because WHAT IS THERE TO DISCUSS WHEN NOTHING IS TO TALK ABOUT? i mean lets face it, hes probably thinking 'oh now that she knows the truth we should never be as close as before, she might like me again' HAH! fuck you if you EVER think of that! do u think your so WOW that ppl soo ADORE you?! damn. but still when i saw those 'sincere' messages, i.. long for an old friend :'( how sad -_- i dont know what to doooo.
he's carved in too deep and probably doesnt know it.
its 9.49 am and school starts at 11.30 from today to wednesday. shoot.
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